I was stunned at how difficult it was to trust in myself. I know I love to quilt. I know that I am an artistic and creative person, yet to create an entire quilt out of just my imagination, no planning, no drawing and no measurements, was quite a lesson in trust. I constantly found myself doubting my abilities!
Often when something turned out different or unexpected I found my first reaction was to hate it! I had to force myself not to trash it. Force myself to look at the unexpected in a new way. I had to Trust myself and it was so hard! As I worked out the details of this quilt I had to remind myself not to judge, but to be open to all the possibilities. It was only when I did that my creativity was able to blossom. As soon as the negative thoughts and self doubt crept in, it was as if all the creative energy was completely drained from me. Being open and trusting in myself was genuinely an alien experience.
There are so many things I love about this quilt, the end result was completely worth the journey. Not only did I learn new techniques, I also learned a great deal about myself.
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